Spinning, Twirling and Dizzy Spells

Well I seem to be on some sort of roundabout at the moment, spinning and twirling and making myself dizzy.....Fellow creatives will know this feeling....and when the energy is flowing madly you just have to run with it.
This dizziness doesn't happen forever, we have spells of being blocked, stuck and downright unmotivated.... perhaps its all a question of balance. The Yin Yang, Fast, slow, active, calm, hot, cold, angry, calm..... for without one we certainly can't appreciate the other. People who say they are well 'Balanced' make me cringe.... I see them as emotionally dead people, who have no feelings at all. Without hate we cannot experience love.....or if we do it's on a sliding scale of how deep.

Since Beltane (Feb 2nd) the created juices have been flowing, yes of course I've had my down days and one of these was just last week. I had some certificates to do and my eyes were particularly bad, so much so I feared the worse and thought I had had fresh bleeds... I almost gave up my business for good! But I have now decided that if work comes to me of this kind again, I will find a calligrapher to job it out to for commission or turn it down....either way, it's not worth the low self worth I felt when having to acknowledge my lack of sight.
Thankful (because I don't know where I would be without him!) the love of my life (we'll call him Pan shall we?) came to my rescue and talked some sense into me. A big hug and a swift kick up the asse always works with the Pixie.

Pan is also an artist and so fully understands the ups and downs of living a creative life. Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. What we need to do is never stop experimenting, growing and loosing sight of why we do what we do....We do it for the Love of it. It's something inside us, it's not something we can stop or ask to go away. I have created since I was a child and I believe that Creators have one thing in common, we are all child spirits.
We know and recognise our strengths and weaknesses.... and it's no big deal. At the end of the day, we feel passion, a passion that comes from deep within and one that cannot be explained or experienced by non-creators.

I do know a lot of Creatives and we all chat about the fact that there's so much creativity around at the moment. To me I believe you are either a creator or a destroyer. Asleep or awake, a giver or a taker....Giving is a creative act, taking is destructive. Peace against War. Do something for the love of it, not for the money it will bring. For if you love it, the money will follow. If you are on the wrong track, be open and awake and your path will surely be shown to you.

So, at the moment I'm twirling..... ideas are flowing.... my business is going to change pretty radically over the next few months and the fantastic thing is, I have the most wonderful man right there beside me, supporting me every step of the way. Now there's something I've never had before!

First I have to plan for a Wedding Fair to be held in September, then we are looking towards Art Shows and a Joint Exhibition. Interest has been shown in my new ideas and ventures, which I will keep under wraps for the time being. But getting out and about (at last) networking and meeting, and being among fellow artists and creatives lately has certainly being motivating.

So excuse me while my postings are a little on the irregular side... It's just I'm Spinning, Twirling and having Dizzy Spells.....With Pan .... Looks like the Pixies in lurrrrve ;o)